3 Women Internal to One Person

She found a note from 2003:

3 Women Internal to One Person

Youngest: Dragging a bench through the wilderness with a 12-day walk ahead. Leaves it, but will go back to get it. The youngest is intrepid, physically strong, independent but also part of a group, of simple nature, a stranger (foreigner) in the group, (the wood nurse), not money oriented, can't afford things but is still drawn to them, loves fun (the pen with a bouncy ball at the end), connected to natural world, male father figure she loves, trusts and leans upon. She is quiet. No reason to talk, she is content with the world and talking disturbs things. She will say "bye" to be polite.

Middle: She is the connection between 2 others, a conduit. They could not connect without her. Like Beatrice in Dante, showing way between, not much known about her otherwise. She brings young to help old. Middle seems to believe she understands things about young that young does not see (but this belief may not be true), i.e. "you get (so) overwhelmed by things, you don't talk especially in the morning." This is a misinterpretation of youthful experience, a devaluing. Does not ring true to young experience.

Older: At "party," a social gathering that turns out to be a funeral. She is somewhat hysterical. Social situation is bad--groups of people are ill and others are afraid of catching the illness so the ill are ostracized. Art is bad, over commercialized (instantly brought to mass market--good at first, but now affecting nature of primary art.) Also, technology seems to be influencing primary relation to art. Social situation is impacting individual, making her prone to hysteria and immaturity. She's ready to harvest from young to get new material without understanding why what young has to offer has more "value" to her than what she currently has. She wants to _use_ it, rather than dive into it in a way that could nourish her, in a way she could learn from it and use that lesson to enliven her own work or the works of others. She wants to commercialize it, making it a part of the system that has already caused problems. She doesn't see that _this_ is the problem. She's too caught up in it. The middle understands that the old needs to touch base with the young to find her balance again. Old age has not brought maturity. Instead,old is too caught up in influences of social community. She is absorbed by it.